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Heyjude19
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I’d love to hear a little about your process structuring Draco’s therapy sessions! I thought they were so well done and was curious about what (if any) research went into them/what you drew from in an attempt to make them feel so realistic.
Thank you! Those were some of my favorite scenes to write as I structured most of my post-war arc for Draco around his mental health. (Quick disclaimer that I am in no way a medical professional). I do write/edit for a living in a health/sciences space so a lot of my writing training comes from that angle as opposed to fiction/creative. So I think I was just already trained to approach that topic and those scenes with a sensitive eye. And then I suppose a lot of what Browning says is a bit of wish fulfillment or really an amalgam of the kind of advice I received all through life from different adult figures.
First of all, oh my god!!! Apologies for the major fan girl moment, but I absolutely love love love your work!!! It's so well written and the character development is so realistic! Would you mind sharing how you got into writing Dramione?
Hi and no apologies, this is quite the surreal experience for me! I was a Dramione reader for a longgggg time. It was my favorite pairing to read and so whenever I had ideas for writing creatively, they were at the forefront of my mind. Eventually I wrote it down and shared but that part took.. a much longer time lol
Hi!!! This is a huge fangirl moment for me lol. Thank you for doing what you do. So my question is, Who was your favorite character to write in RN?
aww thank YOU for reading, seriously. Draco is my favorite to write, especially his inner monologue.
You managed to make Draco thoughtful and caring without taking him out of character. This is a very impressive feat. Were there any moments in canon you drew from or was this purely intuition-based?
Thank you so much! A bit of both, honestly. I love a good character analysis, so when I look at how I want to write a certain character the number one question I have to ask myself is: what's motivating them to do anything? I re-read the books once a year and they hit different as an adult. It's so painfully easy to see how jealous Draco was of Harry and coupling that with his obsession for his family's pride, it's easy to see how he was such a little shit in canon. HBP added that extra layer for me of how this is a child who actually loves his family and will do anything for them to survive. If anyone has read or seen Cursed Child, that development of Draco into an adult who loves his family fiercely and would do anything to protect them felt natural to me (even if I have 1 million other issues with that show...). But I loved writing Draco as someone who had everything, had it taken away (due to his own mistakes and the adults around them) and exploring how he'd rebuild. He'd still be a snarky asshole though.
So I loved all of RN but the bit that really got me was when you find out that Watson is a deaf elf and Crick has to sign to him. I adore when house elves are their own little characters in fics so I was just wondering if there was anything specific that inspired you for this storyline?
Hi! That was a fun bit of world building for me, glad you enjoyed the little glimpses of them! I loved writing the elves as these little formal butlers/cook as opposed to speaking in that sort of broken English we see in canon. I also thought it would nice for elves to have a bit of development outside of "the help" and I hadn't read a story with this kind of arc before. Communication sciences and disorders is a fascinating field to me, and I thought here was an opportunity to expand on the magical world a bit. How would they communicate with someone with hearing loss? A lot of side plots in RN came out of me just wondering how to build out some of the logical questions I had when reading the series I am going to expand on Crick and Waton's background in a one-shot, eventually.
I really enjoyed this fanfiction. You should know it was my first Dramione fic and it was very well written. I was so nervous going into a new ship but it was such a great experience. I will be reading more now that I have read this but this one will always be my number one. When I saw the length of the fic I was a little overwhelmed. Did you ever have a moment where you didn't know where the story was going when writing it or did you always have a plan?
wooooo I brought someone into the ship!! YASSS. Welcome to Dramione, there are so many wonderful writers and authors in this space. And oof, yeah I imagine lots of people are like "wtf? 300k words? WHY?" The "why" is that this story (and I apologize to anyone who has heard this from me before) lived in my head for a decade. An actual decade. So that's a lot of time to think through every little thing. I finally caved last year and started writing it all down, without a clue for how long it would end up, I just knew where I wanted draco/hermione to start, where they ended up, and everything in between was going to be the most self-indulgent, wish ful-fillment moments I could dream up. So the plan was always: OMG JUST WRITE THIS STUPID THING DOWN SO YOU HAVE SPACE IN YOUR BRAIN AGAIN. And that's how one gets to 300K words.
Hello heyjude19!! I haven’t had time to tackle RN yet, but it’s next on my list. I’ve read so many wonderful things about it!! I do, however, adore your other fics. The Nutcracker was just lovely and A Shift in Focus is SO FUN. Definitely one of my all time favorites!! Do you prefer to write from Draco or Hermione’s POV? Do you find yourself in a different headspace depending on which POV you’re writing from?
Hi there! Thanks for reading those fun little stories, I really enjoyed writing them. I do love them both but I probably prefer Draco because I love to swear and I write him very sweary so his dialogue and inner monologues come more naturally to me. And absolutely, I like switching between their POVs because it lets me exercise different modes of thinking and tap into different sides of myself to try and relate to the character I'm writing.
Hello HeyJude, first of all, you are an amazing writer, I love your work. I want to ask if you have any rituals while you are writing, I mean do you listen to a specific kind of music? Do you light up a candle or fix yourself a drink?
ahh thank you thank you! Oh boy this music question.I am a very music driven person in like, life, so RN does have a playlist and I do need to listen to something when I read or write. A bit of a weirder ritual is my plotting runs. I go for long runs outside with a specific playlist and just think through the story in my head. That's helped me more than anything. There's an abandoned parking lot near where I live that should have a co-author credit on RN.
hey heyjude! my question is super silly but how many scones have you eaten while writing remain nameless jk jk seriously tho your work provoked scone hunger in many here and we had a little discussion on what kinda scones did you have in mind: American or British? The pastry lovers need to know!
I feel like they are british? I honestly don't know the difference, but i love to bake and am an avid consumer of Great British Bake Off, so I would probs say british, but I am a filthy yank so I've probably got it wrong. They are very buttery and crumbly? I cut mine into wedges.
You said you write/edit for a living in a health/sciences space. In what way does that differ from writing fanfiction and what do you find hardest when making that switch?
Ooh it's so different. Fiction lets me just go full stream of consciousness if I want, play around with fun dialogue, perform full on character analysis of some of my favorite fictional creations and breathe new life into them and it's so much fun. I can get more imaginative with my words or POVs, more lyrical. It's pure stress relief because how I write for work is much more methodical, I've got to stay in active voice, I've got to write evidence-based, hard facts and keep it very concise and tight. I don't find it too hard to switch, because I view them as such different sides of my brain and one I've boxed in my mind as "work" and the other as "fun."
Hi again! I had a second question about Padma/Ron. Simply, why Padma? Why choose her for Ron? You give a lot of context in your fic about how they get together/why their relationship works well (which I so appreciated!) but I’m interested here in your thought process while developing/conceptualizing their relationship! Did you know she would be with Ron from the start? How did that come together? Etc etc Also didn’t say this earlier in the panic of asking the first question lol but I absolutely adored this work!!! Have been reading HPFF for years and years and it’s rare for me to find a fic (particularly with Dramione) that I enjoy this much/one feels this well thought-out/well executed. So thank you so much for all your efforts on it!
I've read lots of Dramione and I love seeing the different people paired with Ron and it's awesome (Pansy and Luna are probs my fave for him when reading). I had him with Padma from the beginning I think, because she's a pretty blank slate, honestly. I did think it'd be sort of funny for them to bond over how shitty a time he showed her at the Yule Ball, and I also loved that detail from canon that she's in a different house from her own identical twin. That was very telling to me about her personality and I envisioned her as very intelligent but definitely not as tightly-wound as Hermione and a calmer presence for Ron.
Another thing I absolutely adored about this story and something that sets it apart from other Dramiones I've read is that there was never really that "big conflict" where one of them usually draco realises they're not good for each other and leaves. I feel like this story really explored how they worked through their trauma together, and it was so refreshing to read. Was this how you always envisioned their relationship to be or did it change over the years whilst you were working on it?
Yes, absolutely, this story was always at it's core an exploration of how these two specific people found their way through trauma, both separate and together. It's the biggest criticism I receive (to be clear, it's totally valid, my story is not for everyone!) that nothing really happens and it's just about their healing and their relationship. I've written them a bit older (they're about 27 at the start of this story) and so a lot of those moments where one of them could have flared up and left the relationship for a bit would have felt immature, to me. They are full grown adults who survived truly awful things and I think that matures a person quite a bit!
Thank you Jude for answering all our questions! We've all really enjoyed RN here, I was wondering: what do you reckon is the turning point/most important moment in Draco's healing?
Hi, thanks for asking me questions! This is a lovely one! He has lots of little victories throughout the story but there are two moments that stand out to me. His biggest turning point in his healing I would say is in chapter 18 when he accepts the new mantra of "I am okay with this." And his most important healing moment to me was the letter he wrote Lucius in chapter 49. It took him so many years to get to that point where he felt like he could "talk" to his father honestly and let go of a lot of that anger and resentment.
Thank you so much for being here! I'm another person who has become a Dramione shipper in part from reading RN, and it was an awesome read. My question is, what do you like to read in terms of fanfic? I mean, Dramione, of course, but are there certain tropes or set-ups you love? Works or authors that have particularly inspired you? Other ships that you've also enjoyed? Take this whatever direction you want.
Yes I've dragged someone else aboard!! I think nowadays I lean toward honest redemption arcs and depictions of healthy relationships if I want a longer fic. So in that vein I'm recommending one of my favorite authors mightbewriting. Her "Wait and Hope" series is spectacular and I would rec it to all readers, especially if you are new to dramione. Niffizzle is another author I adore ("Somewhere Down the Line" is fantastic). If you're looking for some really lush prose, read anything and everything by PacificRimbaud. Her writing is GORGEOUS and she converted me to ParkWeasel ("The Secretary" is a must read. It's very explicit, so if that's not your thing, just a heads up and she has a dramione in that universe "One and Done"). Scullymurphy is another top notch writer and her pride and prejudice inspired "Universal Truths" I highly rec along with her memory loss one "Fragments and Fissures.

Part 2: tropes and other ships. I love me a co-worker setup. Forced proximity through work? Perfect. I do enjoy some soul-bond tropes because I find it interesting to see how authors write the free-will aspect. Memory loss is excellent too! Other ships I enjoy include the aforementioned ParkWeasel (Percy x Pansy), Ron x Pansy, Harry x Ginny, NottPott, Draco/Neville... you can convince me of just about any ship honestly as long as the story is good. It's why I rec PacificRimbaud a lot because she is so good at making rare pairs work!
Hi there! You work is phenomenal! Like Fresh air like said above. I kept waiting for Narcissa to show up at the wedding, and fits the story that she didn't but why? Why do reason in choosing for her not to show up at their first wedding? Do you think that with time she reconciled with Andromeda ?
As I responded to Jass, she'll do anything for Draco. However, the way I've written her here, I think the man her son has become is a bit of a surprise to her. She's been away from england for months at a time and hasn't seen the way her son's life has been affected, nor the ways in which he's had to cope (both the good and the bad). I head-canon the Malfoys as very repressed, emotionally, so I kept Draco's reactions with his mother very stiff and formal. I don't think their family is the type to show vulnerability between parent and child. And I think Narcissa sees the way Draco has incorporated Hermione and his new friends into his life and she was afraid of what that would mean for her place as his mother (though she'd never admit the fear). So her pride got in the way of supporting her son at his Muggle wedding. She was protecting herself, not realizing she'd really hurt her son, and could rationalize to herself that "oh it was just a silly muggle thing anyway, the magical ceremony is the REAL one and Im supporting that."
Are there any tropes or triggers (for want of a better word) that you won’t read/write?
Non-con is a hard pass for me to write or read (I made an exception for The Auction because I had read and enjoyed the other works in the series and trusted the author). I don't think I'd ever write a Voldemort Wins AU because I am such a fucking hufflepuff and I need me an HEA. I do love to write darker themes, but more in the vein of how Draco is at the beginning of RN versus dark themes of violence.
So another thing that really stood out to me in this story is all the wonderful side characters and their individual storylines, in particular, Theo and Sasha!! I freakin' adore Sasha, she is an absolute queen, but I specifically liked how you explored the pureblood/muggle relationship and how she adjusted to the WW (and how Hermione helped her through this transition). How did you find writing her into your work as an OC as well as alongside the canon characters we already know and love?
I love how people responded to the OCs because that's quite a challenge as a writer to insert new faces into an established, beloved universe and have it be believable. But I approached writing Sasha as I approached writing Theo or Padma (a lot of those minor HP characters can be considered OCs, in my opinion because we know so little about them in canon). Sasha was particularly fun because whenever I read the books I'm always questioning just how the separation between magic and muggle worlds actually works, like logistically. How don't more people know about the magical world? How far does the secret need to go? I started exploring all these little inconsistenices (like... Vernon Dursley knows about magic before Harry is dropped there. Why is he allowed to know? Where does the line stop for blended families?) and before i knew it I'd spiraled into this lovely little relationship of Theo and Sasha that had this massive complication and put forth my own solution because it bothered me so much in canon.
I was really fascinated by the way that you developed the relationships between Draco and Hermione and their parents, and how you addressed the particular difficulties they each faced. Hermione's parents and their fear, Narcissa and her entire worldview vs her love for her son, Lucius and the fact that he existed more as a scarlet letter than a father and the almost lack of closure there. How did you decide how to tackle each of these relationships?
I'll start with Hermione! So speaking of blank slate characters, the Grangers are the blankest of slates. We know they are dentists and take Hermione skiing that one time in OoTP and then she obliviates them and sends them off to Australia. And i know that the books are from Harry's POV, but I always found the lack of information on Hermione's parents very weird for someone who is supposed to be one of Harry's bffs. I always imagined her poor parents just so so overwhelmed by all this magic nonsense. Like this poor couple has to reckon with the fact that their only child is a witch, will be sent away to some school that they can't visit (or if they can, it's not clear), and her best friend is this savior and there's a group of people that would like to murder him and everyone around him. Cool. I'd be so so wary of magic if I were them, especially after the obliviation, so I always felt Hermione would have to do some trust building with them post-war. And also I think Hermione would carry that sense of "where do I belong?" with her parents hesitant to get excited about magical stuff and neither of close friends dealing with muggle parents.

And now the Malfoys. They are so freaking dramatic and I love writing their messy, messy dynamics. Lucius to me is the messiest, I mean he really gambled and lost in this world and so to me it's easy to see how Draco would go from idolizing his father to resenting him and wanting to pull away from that image. Narcissa fascinates me. Her motivations in canon are a bit obfuscated, but her driving force seems to be that she loves her son. I think my favorite Narcissa moment from canon is that subtle wrist grab she does to Lucius in the beginning of Deathly Hallows when Voldemort demands Lucius's wand. To me that showed her determination to just keep her head down and survive with her family intact, no matter what. Post war and without Lucius around... I think her love for her son and her family could override the worldview that shaped her... but it certainly will not be instantaneous. She wants the best for Draco and she's been raised with the belief that the best would be a witch of pure blood.
Ok so last one from me! I would love to hear a little about your thinking and character development re: Sasha and Maureen, particularly in the context of race and choosing to portray them as Black women. I ask because I really appreciated the thoughtful way you portrayed analogies between racism and blood purity, and the experience characters have grappling with both. Based on your attention to detail it seemed like there was a lot of thought and intention behind that— all those little moments where Maureen/Sasha’s experiences of race and/or racism come in (particularly in moments where wizards don’t quite understand it) were really artfully done, and made me really want to know more! They're each quite different characters of course, but still curious about both because of the common theme there. Would super appreciate anything you have to share around your process behind those characters & those moments! It's a large question so feel free to share as little/as much as you'd like.
What a great question. It wasn't explored in canon at all really and so here was another area that always had me scratching my head when reading. How is it different in the magical world? It seems the blood purity focus is their particular world's foundation for a hierarchy of prejudice, but as the magical world expands out of Sacred 28, surely some muggle societal problems would have an impact too? And so part of the reason I wrote them as black women was to diversify the world itself, but to also highlight how truly sheltered Theo and Draco sound when they have questions about it. It also shows that magic doesn't solve everything, as depressing as that is. The magical world is no more accepting a place, something Sasha is quick to be frustrated by when talking with Hermione about the nonsense that is blood purity. Discrimination and prejudice are often at the core of the ruling classes (purebloods in this context) and so making the magical world clash a bit with our world in that very real sense was important to me. Does that answer your question?
My favorite scene of RN is definitely when Ginny welcomed Draco to the club. It was such an awing moment for me because Ginny and Harry had the support of family and friends to overcome it, but Draco was alone. So how was your process of thinking when you come up with the scene?
ahh my fix-it scene for Ginny. Justice for that girl's trauma. And you're so right, the reason a lot of those characters seem more okay than Draco is because of the tight-knit support of family and friends. But I really wanted Ginny to get her moment of healing here and to show Draco that he really isn't alone. He has more in common with his own generation than he thinks, especially with Ginny. It was something she needed to say out loud and it was definitely something he needed to hear.
Another question from me, if I may? You explained earlier about what you see as the pivotal points in Draco's healing process. Obviously, Hermione has a fair bit of development and healing to undergo herself, what would you say is the turning point for her?
Hermione is someone who needed to learn she can be vulnerable too. A lot of her canon depiction saw her putting Harry's needs first and I think she's the type of person who puts immense pressure on herself to be perfect all the time. I loved writing her little bit of vulnerability when she lets Astoria take over running her fund and then later in the story when she unravels and explains to Draco how she thinks she's failed with her house-elf legislation. And her growth with how she relates to her parents: her conversation with them at their Christmas party in chapter 41 where she finally asserts herself and demands they not only accept Draco but accept her abilities, as they are such a natural part of her.
Thank you so much for being here today! My question is, was there a specific moment or scene in RN that you were looking forward to writing the most? If so, did it turn out the way you had planned and did you enjoy writing it as much as you thought you would?
Draco's apology in chapter 8 is probably the one I enjoyed most because it kickstarted the whole story for me. I really loved writing it because it led me down the (very long) path of building him up to that moment, having Hermione react in a way that made sense, and then opened the door for much more to develop between them.
If you were to start writing RN all over again, is there any moments or lines that you would change? If so, why would you change them?
I would say honestly, probably not, from a scene or dialogue perspective. I'm probably much too close to RN, as opposed to other things I've written, so any major changes from what I threw out onto the internet would feel like a betrayal of the story I wanted to tell (lol i sound so dramatic, but this story is sort of my baby and also my soul?) I will say as I read through it the editor inside me is like "arghhhh you can tighten up this sentence and omg there's a typo"). I do have a few tense/grammar issues I'll fix eventually.
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Maple Blueberry Scones Recipe
Maple Blueberry Scones
Ingredients
3 cups all-purpose flour
2 1/2 tsp. baking powder
1/2 tsp. baking soda
A pinch of freshly grated nutmeg
3/4 tsp. salt
3/4 cup cold unsalted butter, cut into small cube
1 large egg, lightly beaten
2 tbsp.pure maple syrup
3/4 cup cold buttermilk
1 cup fresh blueberries
3 tablespoons buttermilk Granulated sugar

Instructions

Place a rack in the upper third of the oven and preheat oven to 400 degrees F.

Line a baking sheet with parchment paper and set aside.

In a mixing bowl sift together flour, baking powder, baking soda, pinch of nutmeg, and salt.

Cut in butter (using your fingers or a pastry cutter, I always use my hands though) until the mixture resembles a coarse bread crumbs.

Work the butter into the dry ingredients until some of the butter flakes are the size of peas.

In another bowl, combine egg, maple syrup, and milk, and beat lightly with a fork.

Add to flour mixture all at once, stirring just enough to make a soft dough. Fold in the blueberries.

Turn out onto a floured board and knead a few times.

Pat out into a 1-inch thickness.

Cut into 2-inch rounds using a round cutter or cut into 8 wedges (I always do wedges, like a pizza).

Place on baking sheet. Brush lightly with buttermilk and sprinkle with granulated sugar.

Bake for 18-22 minutes or until golden brown on top.

Serve warm or have them hand-fed to you erotically.

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